stef penney

the tenderness of wolves

Chapter one

The last time I saw Laurent Jammet, he was in Scott’s store with a dead wolf over

his shoulder. I had gone to get needles, and he had come in for the bounty. Scott

insisted on the whole carcass, having once been bamboozled by a Yankee who

brought in a pair of ears one day and claimed his bounty, then some time later

brought in the paws for another dollar, and finally the tail. It was winter and the

parts looked fairly fresh, but the con became common knowledge, to Scott’s

disgust. So the wolf’s face was the first thing I saw when I walked in. The tongue

lolled out of the mouth, which was pulled back in a grimace. I flinched, despite

myself. Scott yelled and Jammet apologised profusely; it was impossible to be

angry with him, what with his charm and his limp. The carcass was removed out

back somewhere, and as I was browsing, they began to argue about the

moth-eaten pelt that hangs over the door. I think Jammet suggested jokingly that

Scott replace it with a new one. The sign under it reads, ‘Canis lupus (male),

the first wolf to be caught in the Town of Caulfield, 11th February, 1860.’

The sign tells you a lot about John Scott, demonstrating his pretensions to learning,

his self-importance and the craven respect for authority over truth. It certainly

wasn’t the first wolf to be caught round here, and there is no such thing as the town

of Caulfield, strictly speaking, although he would like there to be, because then

there would be a Council, and he could be its Mayor.

     ‘Anyway, that is a female. Males have a darker collar, and are bigger. This one is

very small.’

     Jammet knew what he was talking about, as he had caught more wolves than

anyone else I know. He smiled, to show he meant no offence, but Scott takes

offence like it is going out of fashion, and bristled.

     ‘I suppose you remember better than I do, Mr Jammet?’

     Jammet shrugged. Since he wasn’t here in 1860, and since he was French,

unlike the rest of us, he had to watch his step.

     At this point I stepped up to the counter. ‘I think it was a female, Mr Scott.

The man who brought it in said her cubs howled all night. I remember it distinctly.’

     And the way Scott strung up the carcass by its back legs outside the store for

everyone to gawp at. I had never seen a wolf before, and I was surprised at its

smallness. It hung with its nose pointing at the ground, eyes closed as if ashamed.

Men mocked the carcass, and children laughed, daring each other to put their

hands in its mouth. They posed with it for each other’s amusement.

     Scott turned tiny, bright blue eyes on me, either affronted that I should side with

a foreigner, or just affronted, it was hard to tell.

     ‘And look what happened to him.’ Doc Wade, the man who brought in the

bounty, drowned the following spring – as though that threw his judgement into


     ‘Ah, well…’ Jammet shrugged and winked at me, the cheek.

     Somehow – I think Scott mentioned it first – we got talking about those

poor girls, as people usually do when the subject of wolves is raised. Although there

are any number of unfortunate females in the world (plenty in my experience

alone), around here ‘those poor girls’ always refers to only two – the Seton sisters,

who vanished all those years ago. There was a few minutes’ pleasant and pointless

exchange of views that broke off suddenly when the bell rang and Mrs Knox

came in. We pretended to be very interested in the buttons on the counter.

Laurent Jammet took his dollar, bowed to me and Mrs Knox, and left. The bell

jangled on its metal spring for a long time after he walked out.

     That was all, nothing significant about it. The last time I saw him.

Laurent Jammet was our closest neighbour. Despite this, his life was a mystery

to us. I used to wonder how he hunted wolves with his bad leg, and then someone

told me that he baited deer meat with strychnine. The skill came in following

the trail to the resulting corpse. I don’t know though; that is not hunting as I see it.

I know wolves have learnt to stay out of range of a Winchester rifle, so they cannot

be entirely stupid, but they are not so clever that they have learnt to distrust a free

gift of food, and where is the merit in following a doomed creature to its end?

There were other unusual things about him: long trips away from home in parts

unknown; visits from dark, taciturn strangers; and brief displays of startling

generosity, in sharp counterpoint to his dilapidated cabin. We knew that he was

from Quebec. We knew that he was Catholic, although he did not often go to church

or to confession (though he may have indulged in both during his long absences).

He was polite and cheerful, although he did not have particular friends, and kept a

certain distance. And he was, I dare say, handsome, with almost-black hair and eyes,

and features that gave the impression of having just finished smiling, or being just

about to start. He treated all women with the same respectful charm, but managed

not to irritate either them or their husbands. He was not married and showed no

inclination to do so, but I have noticed that some men are happier on their own,

especially if they are rather slovenly and irregular in their habits.

     Some people attract an idle and entirely unmalicious envy. Jammet was one

of those, lazy and good-natured, who seem to slide through life without toil or

effort. I thought him lucky, because he did not seem to worry about those things

that turn the rest of us grey. He had no grey hairs, but he had a past, which he kept

mostly to himself. He imagined himself to have a future, too, I suppose, but he did

not. He was perhaps forty. It was as old as he would ever get.

It is a Thursday morning in mid-November, about two weeks after that meeting in

the store. I walk down the road from our house in a dreadful temper, planning my

lecture carefully. More than likely I rehearse it aloud – one of many strange habits

that are all too easy to pick up in the back-woods. The road – actually little more

than a series of ruts worn by hooves and wheels – follows the river where it plunges

down a series of shallow falls. Under the birches patches of moss gleam emerald in

the sunlight. Fallen leaves, crystallised by the night’s frost, crackle under my feet,

whispering of the coming winter. The sky is an achingly clear blue. I walk quickly in

my anger, head high. It probably makes me look cheerful.

     Jammet’s cabin sits away from the riverbank in a patch of weeds that passes

for a garden. The unpeeled log walls have faded over the years until the whole

thing looks grey and woolly, more like a living growth than a building. It is

something from a bygone age: the door is buckskin stretched over a wooden frame,

the windows glazed with oiled parchment. In winter he must freeze. It’s not a place

where the women of Dove River often call, and I haven’t been here myself for

months, but right now I have run out of places to look.

     There is no smoke signal of life inside, but the door stands ajar; the buckskin

stained from earthy hands. I call out, then knock on the wall. There is no reply,

so I peer inside, and when my eyes have adjusted to the dimness I see Jammet,

at home and, true to form, asleep on his bed at this time in the morning. I nearly

walk away then, thinking there is no point waking him, but frustration makes me

persevere. I haven’t come all this way for nothing.

     ‘Mr Jammet?’ I start off, sounding, to my mind, irritatingly bright. ‘Mr Jammet,

I am sorry to disturb you but I must ask…’

     Laurent Jammet sleeps peacefully. Round his neck is the red neckerchief he

wears for hunting, so that other hunters will not mistake him for a bear and shoot

him. One foot protrudes off the side of the bed, in a dirty sock. His red neckerchief

is on the table… I have grasped the side of the door. Suddenly, from being normal,

everything has changed completely: flies hover round their late autumn feast;

the red neckerchief is not round his neck, it cannot be, because it is on the table,

and that means…

     ‘Oh,’ I say, and the sound shocks me in the silent cabin. ‘No.’

     I cling onto the door, trying not to run away, although I realise a second later

I couldn’t move if my life depended on it.

     The redness round his neck has leaked into the mattress from a gash. A gash.

I’m panting, as though I’ve been running. The doorframe is the most important

thing in the world right now. Without it, I don’t know what I would do.

     The neckerchief has not done its duty. It has failed to prevent his untimely death.

     I don’t pretend to be particularly brave, and in fact long ago gave up the notion

that I have any remarkable qualities, but I am surprised at the calmness with which

I look around the cabin. My first thought is that Jammet has destroyed himself,

but Jammet’s hands are empty, and there is no sign of a weapon near him. One

hand dangles off the side of the bed. It does not occur to me to be afraid. I know

with absolute certainty that whoever did this is nowhere near – the cabin proclaims

its emptiness. Even the body on the bed is empty. There are no attributes to it

now – the cheerfulness and slovenliness and skill at shooting, the generosity and

callousness – they have all gone.

     There is one other thing I can’t help but notice, as his face is turned slightly away

from me. I don’t want to see it but it’s there, and it confirms what I have already

unwillingly accepted – that among all the things in the world that can never be

known, Laurent Jammet’s fate is not one of them. This is no accident, nor is it

self-destruction. He has been scalped.

     At length, although it is probably only a few seconds later, I pull the door closed

behind me, and when I can’t see him any more, I feel better. Although for the rest

of that day, and for days after, my right hand aches from the violence with which

I gripped the doorframe, as though I had been trying to knead the wood between

my fingers, like dough.